The day started reasonably well but both boys were unwell and off school, and due to this there was an incident which left me feeling crap. I do my best to be a good parent but sometimes feel like a failure.
I spent quite a bit of the morning talking to various people on NHS Direct, which is a wonderful service and i felt really well looked after. The results of the conversations may well be positive.
Later, there was another incident, to do with a misunderstanding by another family member and caused by the thoughtlessness of another, which resulted in bad vibes all round. I was hoping for an apology from the person who caused the problem by accidentally betraying confidence, but just got rudeness and a snub. It is true that you don't choose your family, and it's odd that I still love them all, despite everything.
I do not set out to upset, provoke and cause distress. I am sorry that both people are feeling the way they are. I hope communication can resume soon.
The garden was my solace... for a while, and I also popped round to help a neighbour round the corner who'd emailed me to ask me to take some wooden pallets away. She showed me her newly built 'insect hotel' (I'd call it a hibernaculum) and then one of her neighbours offered me some pears.
I spent a considerable time inside, doing washing up, dealing with fruit, playing Scrabble on facebook and trying to manage the second situation.
Later, I lit the front room stove for the first time this Autumn. The first time the stove is lit after a few months cold, the dust burns off and there's a bit of an aroma. So I lit it quite late on, after the boys went to bed, so that if we need to light it with the forecast cold snap in the next few days, no-one complains about the smell.